I have been working on lots of ground work with the horse I ride lately. It's been a blast, Parelli training is really fun. Each time we cover something it goes a lot smoothly than before. I've been covering backing through a space, roughly three feet wide and over a pole. At first, the horse I ride was apprehensive about going through that small space and over a pole. Not only was he apprehensive, but my cues and directions were off a little. We made quite the picture. Now, my directions and cues are on spot and he goes through perfectly straight most of the time. It's still a work in progress, but we're getting better.
Next we cover pivoting(on the ground) while moving only his FQ. At first it was a comedy sketch. He'd sidestep instead of turning and I'd be following. I began to lose my temper and explode on him. We took a break. Now, I can calmly get him to pivot, moving only his FQ and then just his HQ. There is no fight or misunderstanding directions anymore.
After we pivot and back through gates, we sidestep down the arena. While not exactly straight(more like a bent spoon) we are able to go down the entire arena without any forward movement. I am now working on sidestepping over a pole, he's not sure about that and neither am I.
Once We've covered ground work, I ride. My trotting is getting smoother and my cues are getting clearer. My only issues is with my canter. My balance is great. Going into the canter is smooth. But I still get nervous whenever my trainer says "Let's work on your canter now.", it wasn't the fall that made me nervous. My nervousness didn't appear until AFTER he started to act up. When he acts up he does the same things:throw and tosses his head;snorts repeatedly;tries to constantly break into a trot then canter;when I ask him to stop, he does, then he tenses up, tucks his head and gets ready to fight;and just recently he paws the ground. All This take place when Julie isn't present and he has a bad attitude. Most times we have NO issues except the ones I'm working on. It isn't that I'm afraid to canter and fall, I'm afraid to canter him alone again and have him take off and Me lose control. Whenever my trainer requests that we canter, I cannot help but to think - what happens when I try this alone? What then? What if I lose control and authority? What if I freak and something happens? It's been a nagging voice in the back of my mind lately. I'm not sure how to put this this fear into words whenever we meet up though. I actually love the feeling of a good canter. And I miss it, but I cannot help but to come up with millions of excuses as to why I cannot canter without my trainer . In the end I leave disappointed in myself. (sigh) when will it End?