You may think this is just another story about a girl who lost her first horse... Or is losing her first horse. But I am losing my soulmate, my only friend, and the being who gave me a second chance at life. Cookies has extremely sever founder, and chances are grim. The poem below explains all, and I think everyone could relate to it. If you can't, you haven't experienced life or true love. Comment if you wish, but no mean comments, this is a really hard time for me.

For my beloved friend, soulmate, and horse:

I can’t think of just one sentence to say
Because so many thoughts and memories of you
Are swirling around in my head
Oh, how I wish I had taped you more
And taken more pictures of you
If only I could paint my memories
As beautiful as the friend you are
You have taught me everything there is to know about life
No college preparatory school could have taught me better
You have showed me love
You have showed me hurt
You have showed me forgiveness
You have showed me trust
And given me the capacity to hold all this knowledge
I thought I couldn’t give anything to anybody
That would be worthwhile
All this time, I’ve been whining about how no one could ever
Love me
And how I couldn’t love anyone else
I was wrong
I can’t believe I’m so close to losing you now
I always thought you would be here for me
I always thought I would be there for you
Have I failed you, dear friend?
I shouldn’t have left you alone
I shouldn’t have taken you for granted
I forgot that as easily as life can be given
It can be taken away
Ignorance, pure ignorance
And I am so sorry, that I must be taught this lesson at your expense
At my expense
At everyone’s expense, whose lives you have touched so passionately
I once heard the saying that
“You are only blessed with the gift of true love once in your lifetime”
I kept looking for some boy
And kept not finding him
If only I had realized sooner that YOU were right here
Waiting for me
To start loving you back
Maybe we wouldn’t be fighting back tears
Saying goodbye
Have I realized too late, my dear friend?
How could I ask any more of you?
I want to tell you to keep strong
Keep faith, hope
We can pull through
But can we?
I want to keep strong for you, and your pain
I want to keep hope alive so you don’t give up
But who am I fighting for?
For you
Or for me?
I want to keep you with me forever
So I don’t have to feel this unbearable pain
So I don’t have to feel this incredible shame
That I am hopeless
That you are suffering
That I am weak
And you have been so strong
Pulling the weight for both of us
How could I ask you to never leave me
When I have left you so many times
How could I ask you to keep trying
When I have given up
Twenty five percent isn’t one hundred
And “maybe” isn’t “definitely”
But love is love
And I love you